there is nothing that can't be resolved by talking over..!!

A few hours and a bath later I have cooled down a bit and I was in a mood to talk... What had Shona done?? Well, she went to college to collect books on her own, without telling us.. Earlier on my blog I wrote about the fact that she thinks and re-thinks about every decision we took.. So this time too she acted on her impulse and went on her own to the college..

I had called her on her cell which she didn't pick and then later on her land line number.. Her mother then informed me that she had gone to the college to collect books.. This is how I came to know about it and thus was so mad to know about it from her mother when I called her.. Maybe I wouldn't have been that mad if she told it to me herself in the first place.. I then checked with the other friend to know if she also felt like going without informing me.. Thankfully, she didn't go and that was the only relief I had in those few minutes..

As I was about to write this one, she called in to explain and talk over it.. Of course, I was in my taunting self, but she asked me if I were fine and I replied in an affirmative as she began defending her case... She told me the parental pressure had prompted her to go and get those damn books and also that this way she feels relaxed to have got the job done in time and sit back...'In Time', I felt like a kind of arrow had pierced me, a suggestive of me being way too laid back.. I was still in a mood to act as a spoiler and told her that she hasn't got the entire set yet, so no need to be so relaxed and happy on this stupidity of hers... To this she laughed like I have cracked a joke and I could see myself melting.. Now with a more understanding tone, I tried to explain her why I was so mad but she very childishly said - "I know I am stupid and I accept it... But I also know that you can still deal with it.."

Not the exact solution but definitely something that makes me forgive her as yet.. But if you are reading it, Sweety don't push your luck too far as you know when I am mad, I am not in a mood to listen and my anger triggers a button in my sub-conscience, that makes me remember all past mistakes the person committed, that makes me even more mad.. I try too hard to keep any relation going but if it feels like exhausting me, you know I leave.. Don't make me do that ... Try to curb your such irresponsible behaviour so that I may not feel to push the "Get Outta here" button in my internal program...