Why am I waiting so anxiously for the result??

I don't know why I am the only one desperately waiting for result.. All my classmates and friends aren't really eager to have a look at the results, but I am.. Everyone's parents are anxious by now, some even to the point of accusations that the result is out and they are hiding it from them.. Today, even my dad asked me about my result.. I was telling him how apprehensive even I was about it.. And how eagerly I await the DMC to analyse my performance..

I am a bit nervous this time.. Most of the time I almost know what my result is gonna be.. I am right too.. You know it, I told you I am good with my forecasts..[;)] This time I was ill, down with fever and had gone to the examination hall so unprepared and not so sure-footed.. I had just revised two units and the previous night, I was feeling so weak, even couldn't lift my arms.. As I cried in my bed after taking medicine, I saw my body temperature rising every hour and Mum asked me to relax and take a nap.. While my eyes were laden with sleep, I was crying and not able to sleep.. Finally the medicines did their part and I was sleeping..

I woke up at 7 in the morning.. Couldn't get time to revise and was shaking with fear.. I am so blank.. What am I gonna do? My body temperature was 101 and my eyes again red because of crying.. I decided not to go to college at all... Yeah, I gave up before trying.. If that's what you were thinking like my parents.. They wanted me to go.. I felt they were monsters for indicating that they wanted me to go.. Well, now I feel, it was good to take a chance, I was to reappear anyways..

I was now determined to go as I felt I won't let them recite it again and again forever, till I live that I didn't even give it a try and I was so damn idiot not to prepare for exams in advance.. How can you explain things to elders, I am clueless.. Everyone says I am good at convincing but with the matters of studies to discuss at hand, I can never convince them.. I went still feeling bitter about the whole experience.. Revised as much as I could in the journey to college.. But I was again blank as soon as I stepped into the examination hall.. I looked at the question paper.. I was dazed... Now repenting to act to satisfy my ego.. But, then I attempted the paper to my greatest capabilities and left as soon as we were allowed to leave the hall.. As I gathered myself to drag my exhausted body out of that suffocating place, my friend asked me to tell him the answer to a question.. I was angry.. I didn't know much, that is why I was out so early and he unknowingly stepped on the most aching nerve.. Then, I felt like shouting on him, but I controlled myself and left..

Cheating wasn't an option for me.. It was the hardest luck.. I and Paro love to confirm answers in the exams too, obviously in class tests we discuss them.. That day I was to sit on the last desk and Paro was on the first desk of the other row.. Too long a distance for even the Master of the art of Cheating..[;D] So, I couldn't copy even a single answer to float comfortably off the crisis.. Otherwise I would have been comfortable and confident of clearing the damn paper..[:(]

After the paper Paro expressed her sympathy for my luck and asked me to take proper rest and not worry about it.. I strongly believe in the age old saying, 'What is done is done' and move on.. I don't pester over it and depress myself by thinking over it again and again.. Forget and move on is my rule..

So, yes I am anxious to know how I fared and how hard was my luck.. How I sailed through or flunked in these testing times..[:D] Keeping my fingers and toes crossed..[;)]
Touch wood..