Am I susceptible to loosing temper??

Do I really get angry so soon and so often?

Am I susceptible to loosing temper?

Do I really scold people that often?

I am not liking the sentence.. Lets put it like this, Do I tend to explain things to people the harsh way? By being rude?

I am trying to understand the 'please don't get angry' prefix my friends adds before letting me know any of their stupidity.. Of course, I get angry when they tell me that they have done what I asked them not to do.. They are getting to see the consequences I told them they'll face if they hover in those territories.. Be it the matter of heart or the brain, I am glad I am not wrong in predicting the course of things.. The sequence of happening.. And most important the consequences..

So how am I supposed to feel to know that you hardly listen to me?? How do you feel I should have reacted on hearing you say that you not only do it but also hide it from me? I tell my friends whatever I am feeling and expect them to let me know what is on their mind, what's troubling them, what is it that keeping them so lost and so deeply in thought?

I like Neha for being just like me.. She can't imagine not letting me know anything, but for others, I wonder why they let me know after so long? Or even worse, talk to me about it and agree to do whatever I say and then out of nowhere announce that they did exactly the opposite and now are in a fix.. First they do it then expect me to be cool about it.. I feel so exasperated.. And If I try to be cool, they feel I am so mad at them that I have resorted to cold treatment!!

Wondering, if just like 'be honest' is it just another word with no sense and used to catch attention? With no particular meaning? Most of the time I hear it from the girls.. Thank God, guys spare me the horror... Wonder if they really want to say it too?? It is a question woth asking, but most guys too fear my temper... Maybe they skip it intentionally to avoid the nasty fight that would follow..

Whatever be the reason I just thank them for keeping off the words.. They do give in hints that they expected me to get angry and that in their heart they hoped I won't get mad this time.. But I think I love to prove people wrong..[;)]

Anyways, many a times I get calls and text as late as 1 am in the morning.. Most of the time I don't cater to these random and untimely calls as I hit the bed quite early [maximum by 11].. But many a times, when I am still wide awake, I pick up such random calls.. Talk to them and try to console them and make them things in a different light.. As I pacify the restless child in them, I wonder if they really understood my point or was it just some one's voice they were hoping to hear, doesn't make much of a difference what they spoke? Well, considering what I want, I feel its just the feeling that someone is listening.. I don't want people to tell me what to do, so I tell them straight that I don't want solutions to problems.. But if its a mess, I do what they [the people I called] tell me to.. Is it too much to ask if I want them to do same?

I think I want people to match up to my expectations.. But am I the only one to expect? Don't they expect things out of me? Don't they want me to act and do things in a certain way? Talk and reply in a certain fashion? Why am I made to feel I expect a lot? Many of my friends say that after my bawling out, they see things in a clearer way.. That this scolding made them change their point of view, empowering me with a tool to change perspectives.. Almost all of them are happy and enlightened after that sparky and heated lecture I give.. Do I too learn anything? Hell yeah, I do.. I learn to remember not to get angry next time that I so proudly overlook.. [;)]