'Save the men' campaign..

Everyday in the television I see the 'Save the Tigers' campaign ads but I wonder why isn't anyone bothered about the people starving to death in Orissa?? I wonder if the government should launch a campaign to help these poor men meet the basic necessities of life, the right to livelihood..

Just read in the newspaper today how people in Orissa are dying of prolonged malnourishment.. In some of the places like Kalahandi, Balangir and Koraput, more than 70 percent of the household come below the poverty line.. the primary health care facilities is also poor in such areas where people are dying of malnutrition and anaemia..

While everyone is coming up and associating with the 'Save the Tiger' campaign, i wonder if we would love to associate with the cause of eradication of poverty.. I read people's concern for stripey, the cub, shown in the ad where a very concerned Kabir Bedi wonders if the cub's mother would return while there are so many orphaned children in Orissa who have seen their parents and siblings die of chronic hunger.. While India boasts of a growth rate of over 9 percent, I wonder if people still don't even get enough to consume food that could give them 850 kilo calories a day, for how long can this rate be maintained??

I do sympathise with all the tigers in the world but I think it is easier to relate to the pain of fellow human who can express themselves like we do, who we can communicate with, who we are biological identical to.. I wish the government also takes notice of the plight of the motherless children of fellow men and raise a campaign to help them get a better life, get them their right to live..

Why do people ought to have an opinion about you??

In the past few days I had been hurt a lot..
Yes, It was a real bad week that somehow ended and I am feeling a little better now.. Not because the issues have been amicably settled but because I am bored and tired of wondering over what prompted them to have such opinions about me!!


It started with knowing how my good friend still doesn't understands me.. She still judges me for whatever I say.. It hurts to know that you can't be yourself even in front of your friends while most of the time you act according to the socially acceptable norms and thus the lone time with friends is cherished by all as you know you wont be judged for a nasty comment, a little bitching that you do!! I thought over the years we have come to know each other so much that she knows when I am kidding and when I am not, when I am just commenting just for the heck of it, when I am damn serious but I recently discovered that all this time I was being judged and I was being characterised rather than just being accepted as who I was!! Hurts to know it when some good friend of yours still tells others that you are a mess..


I feel so betrayed, so hurt because I don't open up to strangers, not many know all aspects of my personality as I don't like being judged on my way of saying things, my arrogance, my ignorance, my views, my dreams and my fears and weaknesses.. But it feels so vulnerable when someone you trusted enough to know your silly side was judging you all the while!!


Somehow I was coming to terms with it when I came to know someone who I don't even talk to is telling my other best friend that she doesn't like me and my good friend as both of us are so pompous and arrogant and so not her type.. Why the hell would I care if you don't like me.. Its not my problem babe.. I wish such back bitters had the courage to stand up to me and tell it to my face and then I would teach them the most important lesson of their lives, that no one gives a damn if you like them or not.. Those who matter would tell it to your face and those who don't can bark their throats out and I don't care for their strained vocal cords!! As if I asked them if they liked me.. As if it makes any difference to me, be jealous and go to hell, you can't be like me nor change me and I am immune to your negativity..


This just makes me wonder why do people make opinions about others without even knowing them, I don't even talk to this chick.. The only thing is that she is jealous that my friend who was earlier her companion in the bus now doesn't care to hear her crap and this is how these jealous people channelise their negativity.. But in the process they lose whatever little dignity and respect they had!! Had she kept her disapproval of me to herself, I wouldn't have found a reason to hate her more.. I'll look forward to see her all irritated face when no one talks to her as she is someone who can't cherish the beautiful bond of friendship.. If you ever read this chick, I want you to know that no one in your class or the bus likes you and everyone hates your attitude.. The world won't revolve at your will, learn to control your tantrum throwing ways or one day you'll be thrown out of this group you think you are a member of while people hate you and are just suppressing the feeling they get when you act like the nerd and bimbo that you are.. [:P]


And as far as I am concerned, I don't care about people like you, if you don't like me , better keep off me because I don't like people like you and I have already shown my disapproval..

I am upset.. Too upset.. I want to talk to my good friends and want to spend the rest of my day just thinking about wonderful things we do together.. I don't know why I sometimes feel so bad!!

May be its because my best friend is going away for 13 days!! That she would be too busy and I won't be able to talk to her as and when I want to!!

Its her cousin's wedding and she would be too busy with all the ceremonies and here I am attending to my mood swings!! Without her it becomes even more difficult to handle all this.. Its not that I am any less close to the rest of them but I feel this way whenever anyone of them goes away.. Oh, I hate to feel this way.. This makes me realise the fact that we would be walking on our different routes within the next few months and may be we would be separated by great distances and we would not find time for each other.. The very thought scares the hell out of me.. Bring tears in my eyes..

I wonder if one day none of us finds time to stop and say a 'Hi' from our busy schedule.. I can't imagine the day!!! I love it when I know what my friends are doing and I love it when they know what I am up to.. Its such a great feeling of caring and being cared for that I never wanna loose it for anything.. I wish we always take out time from our busy schedules to talk to each other, if not daily then at least twice a week.. I wish for things but who knows what is in store for us.. I just wish its the best and we still stay in touch..

But right now all I want is that she comes back soon.. All this while, since the day she told me that she is going away, I wanted her not to go.. I secretly wished that something comes up and she cancel going there.. I loved it when she said one half of her wanna go but other half wanna stay here, with me.. Its the best feeling when someone makes you feel so special.. I just wish that these days pass by as I blink and she stands besides me like she always does.. I think she is some sister separated at birth, a 'Siamese twins' or something as we can feel each others pain and happiness too..

How often we need a topic to talk about to people we really like??

I was wondering about my conversation with most of my friends, it starts with a 'Hi, How are you?' What were you doing?' And then we start with details of what we did all day before we connected via, whatever be the medium.. So I wonder what all do we talk about?


Its the entire days summary starting with the time I woke up and then what all I did and then what all I saw and then what I would do next.. Who others I talked to in the day.. Anything interesting and so on .. As both parties finish off with these trivial details, we juggle with various other stuffs like what all happened on that particular day and what did you dream of? Yes, its fun talking about what you want, what you hope for and what did you dream of last night and we love to recreate the entire sequence of events.. Its fun and a great imaginative exercise..


We also keep saying 'and?' 'AND?' in quick succession but we don't feel we are done.. This is what happens when we are talking to the one we like talking to.. We are never busy for them and we feel its the most important call of our life and we must take it.. The thought of saying - 'Busy right now, would call you later' , wouldn't even cross our mind but when you hear this line too often, I would say you should conclude that the person doesn't want to talk to you and is trying to find an out without actually hurting you.. Well the last line isn't true.. You are ought to get hurt and I would rather call it subtle hints for you to fall back as someday you would hear it from them yourself..



Thus, if you mean anything to that person.. If being with you gives them joy, they would always make up things to talk about rather than cite a mental thought process termination as a reason to stop talking to you and won't keep repeating there isn't anything to talk about either.. [The last line hold only if said at more than 3 instances, I like to give them a benefit of doubt.. I know I am too fair]..[;)]

My 'It won't help if you Fret' theory..[;)]

I wonder why is everyone so serious 24x7.. Why they just can't take things lightly.. I don't know why they make a big deal out of everything?

We are having our first placement drive this February.. Yes, the first chance to land ourselves a job and yes it is a big deal but why so tensed?? Why carry that look around as if the world would end if you wouldn't carry that frown and you ought to save the world as you are the good..[:D]
I mean talk to anyone and they are all so tensed about the placement drive, its not that it would help.. What to read, how to prepare, what to wear and so many more questions, I feel I would just loose all the will to face interview questions if this continues for a few more days..!!

Its not that I want it any less than others but, you know, I have a different theory.. Yeah, one more theory.. Lets call it 'It wont help to fret!!'... All around me suddenly become all serious and brooding whenever they have any big event coming up, some even fret even on the mention of a class test, who on earth cares for that.. I am also sincere and I do submit my work on time and do give tests and papers but I never behave like the Prime Minister of a warring nation!!

I believe in my 'It wont help to fret' and I move around as if I am shielded even if the entire world is falling apart.. Small things never break my spirit.. I can talk extensively even if I am not prepared for my exam I am headed to take.. Come on, you can't be prepared from an unprepared state by fretting or just going through things at the last minute. .Its better to keep your calm and use your calm mind to give logical and sensible answers than writing a few mugged sentences without any knowledge about them.. You wouldn't score this way for sure but some logical answer with some common sense and little knowledge you have is surely a good bet.. You have nothing to loose and everything to gain, so I take it as a chance to learn and not cry about the excuses I can give for not being prepared to face the situation.. Why pretend to be strong when you can always cry.. Why hide ypur pain when it can be soothed by a few tender words?? I would rather speak up and let it go then fret and shed hair.. I think losing hair is worse than shedding a few drops of tears.. Don't you think? Crying would help you get rid of the dirt in your eyes but loosing a few strands would lead you to another fretting situation and believe me its a vicious cirlce, just like the vicious circle of poverty we read about in class 9 that would never let you get out of its grip.. So better run for your life and look young and full of life.. Even the literal sense would have the same effects.. [;)]

Bonding between girls..

I always felt that girls are better at bonding with others and the bond is stronger when it is between two girls.. Look around and you can cite a great number of girls that are bounded too well to each other.. I am very attached to my girl friends and I can't imagine to go on without them.. They are my 'support system'.. The four pillars of my strength, yes, there has been an addition to my support system..

Yanks, the new entrant may be a young thing but is as good at understanding and caring as any other of them.. She understands me and cares for me and can really know what I want and what I feel despite whatever I say.. [Yes, like any other girl, I say and mean different things]..

Yanks makes me realise the importance of things and yes she too has added her individuality to my persona.. I can now see a few things through her eyes too and I can now appreciate one more point of view, another prospective.. We love and respect each other, we share thoughts, dreams and our expectations.. We ask for each other's advice, while she adds another well thought over streak in my deeds and thoughts, I bring in the necessary aggression and randomness.. The craze and uncertainty.. I am strangely different and uncertain and yes, I am proud of it.. My view may be different but it surely isn't wrong..

The point is a girl has better communication skills and can really express self well.. I need more time to speak out my mind in emotional situations, I love my shell, don't wanna share somethings with the world, but I can let down the guards when I am talking to my 'support system'.. I am sure most would agree.. Someone once said that girls are emotionally stronger as they can talk freely with their friends and share feelings and feel less vulnerable, while guys just hang out together and seldom talk about their feelings.. TRUE..
I agree with this generalisation he drew.. Yes, we have an advantage on this front.. We can cry and speak our heart out and feel better and thus we can really get a bitter experience out of our system sooner.. We are less likely to be left with the pain in heart as someone [a dear gal] would make us talk our heart out and feel better.. No doubt guys also cheer up their friends but they don't encourage you to talk about it and even if in some rare situation they do, the guy hurt doesn't wanna open up.. The girls would hear you, give suggestions, agree with you and your point of view, even call the other person causing pain some names and even curse them swear to kick his/her ass for you and laugh about it some other day.. Its such an evolving process and pain does withers away and soon it becomes bearable..


The best way to cheer up would be bitching about a common object of hatred.. Yes, we love it and we do love to keep ourselves updated with all the happenings in our surroundings and this word of mouth has more credibility than that 'fact' being stated in the paper..[:D] We believe our source and we pass on the information to our trusted friends and thus we all are updated.. No doubt the men call us the gossip mongers but they are no less in spreading rumours and details of others personal lives but we girls bond over such conversations while they just love to be aware of a happening just not to feel left out!! Agree with me guys, you don't bond on this aspect and you would pass on the information to a larger group than all of us taken together.. We love to keep it in the group and thus you can never confront us..[:D]

Keeping the humour aside, we have a better understanding of behavioural patterns so we love to categorise people and we like drawing comparisons between lives of people.. We analyse the situation for our friend who isn't in a state of mind to judge.. We take the responsibility and deal with things as if they were our own problems and we never feel tired to lend a helping hand so this explains the fact that why we have a best girls friend and not a guy best friend.. Guys too mostly share feelings with a girl.. Its a fact, just like we gel more when we hate the same thing than liking the same thing..[;)]

[Note : Photos courtesy various sources ]

Some coincidences..

I always wonder about these few things that happen almost every year.. I wonder if there is some synchronisation between these events and the weather.. What am I talking about?? Well, just spare a few minutes and take a look at the strange happenings below :

1. Why does it always get cold on January, 26? There hasn't been a single January 26 since I was a kid [the limitation of human memory implies here too] that wasn't foggy.. The morning is too cold with lost of fog and by the time its 12, we get a nice sunshine.. It seems its a part of the preparation for the Republic day parade.. Yesterday it was quite warm and it wasn't this foggy but now look at today, its too cold and it was foggy too.. Its good to see the Rashtrapati Bhawan through a thin layer of fog but why is this always the case?

2. Why is Christmas always accompanied by intense cold wave? Just like the case of January 26, December 25 is also too cold and windy.. No matter how much the winter seem delayed even till December 24, but it suddenly gets cold on the 25th!! It seems the situations long ago during the time of Christ's birth are always re-created.. It is too cold and we have to get all the woollens out from there resting place to keep ourselves warm..

3. Why it always rains on August 15? The monsoon may be delayed, there may be little monsoon in a year but hardly any Independence day goes without a drizzle.. We always see the Prime Minister walking with an umbrella to unfold the Tricolor.. The location and weather remaining constant, we can only see the various Prime Ministers change over due course of time..

I don't have much problem with the Rains but I do not like this cold and windy winter climate.. I am too susceptible to cold and I wish we had little or warmer winters though it were a windy winters this time while the last year we did get a zero temperature [that's what was the recorded night temperature one particular night last winters].. I am happy that its time for spring and soon we can pack all the woollens away..[:)]

Happy Republic day..!

Its the 60th Republic day and we are celebrating the 60th year of our existence as a democracy.. I feel we are quite a young nation and I am just not pointing at the average age of the Indians which I suppose is somewhere around 25.1 [quite young, we must admit] but I was talking about the age of the Nation as whole.. As a democratic government..

No doubt that ours is a 5000 year old civilization but we have also spent some 200 years as a slave Nation.. We Indians take great pride in our culture and civilization but still some of the newly found values of equality and other multidimensional liberties are yet to be properly implemented!! A few days back I read it in the newspaper that most of our laws were made by the British and some of them aren't relevant now.. Some of the laws haven't been used for the past 150 years or so, I meant in jurisdiction.. I feel some day our ministers should look at these laws and try to improve what seems irrelevant in the present context and put in new laws that cater to the new found problems of this rather young and dynamic nation which is growing at a fast pace..

Just Joined 'Twitter'..

Just joined the famous micro blogging site 'TWITTER' but I like it more here.. I have the liberty to use as many words here as I want to while there just a small feed of 140 words actually calls for silly one liners and wacky interesting lines that just give an idea of your state while here you can explain yourself at great lengths!! [;)]

How can the woman write there and be still satisfied as I believe we have this inherent mitochondrial gene that describes our longing to use as many words as possible to explain ourselves.. There writing a thought is like trying to squeeze an Elephant to fit into a 4'X4' box!!! Yes, at least for me it is a way of saying so many things in just 140 words!! As I resort to SMS language that I am trying to evade, I wonder is it really something I would enjoy in the long run? The answer to the question is still unknown but I am out to find it.. Sooner or later, I would either give into the monsterous laws [come on, a word limit, or should I say character limit of 140 is too cruel and gruesome] or I would give up and write here happily forever and ever..

This however is to remain my favourite for eternity as I always feel I have too much to talk about and too little people at my predisposal who would probably understand me!! Well if you would like to see my attempts there, I am there by the name of 'NeEti_VeRmA', had to invent this style as I never get my name as an available id to pick up.. I wish I could tell all the other Neeti Verma's that it is so unfair of them to pick up my name before I could also invade the cyber space!! [:(] As I sob for the loss of the dream of owning my name as a url, I would rather like to take a break from the computer!! Phew, I feel a bit tired now!!

I think Bill Kaulitz is really too cute...

An off sometimes becomes too much to handle and what do you do when you aren't exactly feeling too good to move out and there isn't much to do inside..

So just like thousands of us who either watch the 'Idiot box', i.e., TV or sufr the net, I too decided to spend my day doing just that!! I was just surfing through the various channels when I was forced to stop and look at the guy performing in some concert..


I heard him sing a few amazing tracks of his band, 'Dogs unleashed', 'Alien', 'Dark side of the sun' and 'Ready, set, go' and I just couldn't take my eyes off him.. I stood there admiring his jawline and then I realised he had a great body too.. I decided to know more about him.. As the segment was over and someother show started airing on the channel, I decided to google him later and know more about him..


As the day proceeded and after my little noon nap, I headed straight to the computer to know more about this cool guy.. This is what I could find about him :


He is the vocalist in the German band 'Tokio Hotel' which was formerly called 'Devilish'.. He started writing music with his twin brother at the age of seven.. By the age of thirteen, he had his band in place, they called it 'Devilish'.. His debut album 'Scream' was a big hit in Germany and later was re-released in English.. His looks, young age and edgy hairstyle has helped him obtain icon status among many teenage girls.. No doubt, he is a stunner and has gained iconic status.. Bill was immortalized in wax at the Madame Tussauds museum in Berlin.. At 19, Bill became the youngest person to be duplicated by the Madame Tussauds museum in Berlin..

Well, finding all this about him made him look even more cute than he did in the first go..

ESD was really a sucker..!!

The subject was the most irritating subject I had dealt with till date..

I was tensed about the viva a month or so ago but the theory paper was worse.. I had studied a lot and i had even revised the entire stuff before the exam but still the paper was set so hard for any average person to crack.. [No, the 'THREE IDIOTS' thing didn't apply here]
I still remember how I went through the entire question paper to see if there was a question I could attempt.. No, I wasn't a big zero but still there wasn't a single question in the entire paper I could attempt both the parts of!!

Somehow I started writing in the answers and I know I have written the paper like a below average person but it was the best I could perform.. I just don't understand why someone would frame a paper in such a way.. Everyone was baffled to see the question paper and I know a few who would still clear it.. I just hope I get a 40 somehow and I don't have to write the paper again in the next semester!![:(]

I still can't get over that shock and all my conversations regarding the papers start with the example of ESD.. It was worse than the MWRE paper last semester [which was the reason for those mixed feeling regarding results last semester].. This time I won't be shocked to see my result as I think I know what awaits me in the next few months.. Though a paper still remains, all I can think about is the result, I want the result to be declared soon this time.. And a good result is a dream that can't even be a distant reality..

If I clear the paper I would believe in two things - one is that miracles do happen and the other is, well lets not share it right now..[;)]

Why do people who shout in an argument??

This is a question that most of us wonder about when we are in an argument with someone.. I have had many heated arguments with anyone to everyone.. What I have noticed so far is that most people presume that they can overpower you by just the shrillness and volume of their voice.. They start shouting to project that their point of view is not only right but also of superior quality..

Some would try to defend it as a spontaneous outburst of anger and disagreement but I wonder how is their rage brought down just after shouting that one sentence.. I too get angry and I too shout at people but I just don't stop after shouting one line.. I would continue to murmur a few curses till that adrenaline rush goes away and that resentment and hard feeling come out of my system in the form of words!! I may be abusive but pretentious and loud, I don't think that is the right way to get over the sudden rush of rage..

This girl I know and I engage into a number of arguments with her, feels that just because she is shouting, she is saying the right thing.. She is so idiotic and her point of view is somewhat so retarded..!! She would just shout in her shrill and irritating voice saying things that any sane man would consider so lame to put in your opening lines of the argument!! [:D] Seriously, she just shouts out loud that I can't fool her with my clever and ludicrous ways.. That she is too smart to fall prey to my ways of influencing people.. She is such a pudden-head that I wonder how she deals with other people around her with such a lame thinking!!

According to her when you give a point after a pause, when you wait for her to cool off a bit you are making it up now!! And that she is too smart to see through you!! I feel like calling her names and telling her that you are a moron and that a person like you should be treated for neurosis.. She is demented and I feel her supporter should be thoroughly punished for making her feel her way of thinking is right and that she should see and evaluate people according to her demented capabilities!!

I am just going to stop giving attention to that unhinged girl a cold shoulder and let her live in her demented state till someone really kicks her and make her come to senses to realise how abnormally irritating and demented her ways are!! No doubt she can't stick to many gal friends she makes, as far as guys are concerned, well they love to stick to a pretty retard..!![;)]

The down counter ticking.. Seems ESD has got on my head now!!

Writing in after too many days!!!

Yeah, I feel I lost that charm in my writing.. Kidding.. I didn't had time to sit back a type a few lines.. The past few days saw the session wrapping up to give way to our practical exams..

Practicals, oh! I don't remember the last time I took them seriously.. They were always a joke ever since we were in school.. No one ever took them seriously, but here in college, we don't even perform them and the vivas are just not what we thought they were..!!!

It was great, we gave each practical exam without any preparations and we'll get marks according to our impression in class.. So, I don't know what I would get, I am not too attentive in class as you know and anything above 40 is a great score for me..

The practicals over and now I am shuttling between college and District Center get myself a nice project to submit by the end of this week!!! A tight situation.. I can feel the pressure..

I am going to college tomorrow to try my luck with the project I have just bought and I hope the teacher in charge just passes it on to be given a go ahead by the Head of Department..

Pray for me that my visit to college doesn't go in vein!!!

Good night..

Note :- The ESD practical viva was taken by the external who had incredible knowledge of the subject and I think it was more of a shocker to know where we stand!!!

Session end approaching...

Oh!! You never realise when the end is approaching.. It seems like only a few days back we had started off as the fourth year students.. The last year of college already seems like the shortest year of college life and every other day someone reminds of the fact that it would be all over soon yet we wish and we pray that time somehow stops or at least takes a slower pace!!!

Well this feeling would stick on till it ends and then linger on as 'Oh! It ended'.. But the things of my latest concern is how short this semester seemed to me!! The odd semester is the larger semester while the even semester is over by the time you blink [not in the literal sense guys!!] But still, time flies away then but this time, in the odd semester too, it seemed we didn't get time at all... There weren't many days that I have spent with my group and I haven't met my entire group together, have met a few group members at a single time, but the entire group together, free and chatting is a thing that I can't recall has happened in the recent past..

Well, this past Friday went to movie with friends.. It was a great movie, mindless and comedy, not many complex emotions to deal with!! It was great.. The plus point to add to the fun was that it was a called 'BANDH' by the BJP.. So, as we settle down to chat in Mc D's, the BJP members walked in to show us the way out and forced the place to close.. We sat inside a small gloomy place while waiting for the clock to turn 1 so that we could go in for our movie.. Well, I couldn't have an ice cream because of all the chaos!!! [:(]

The entire college was no fun in the past few days and it was kind of OK.. By the way, I am done with my summer training presentation.. It was fine, he didn't put up any questions at all.. Great, I was delighted at my luck which had turned too sweet that day!!

The point however is, I am not yet in the exam mode and the sessional are back again.. The vivas are just less than a week away and within 10 to 12 days [from the end of vivas] the final exams will make the calling and I am not prepared!!! Panic attack?? A sudden realisation?? Don't know what to call this, but I am just not panic yet.. And yes guys, it is my main concern.. Whenever I am not in the feel of exams, it means I am not panicking or getting hyper, my exams go all wrong.. I write terrible papers and I pass on the verge biting my nails fearing to flunk!!!

So guys pray that the panic attack strikes in and I get in the exam mode before its too late..
Best of luck to all those whose exams are approaching..

NOTE : I am not writing regularly as there are so many things happening in a day and nothing at all for a week.. So it becomes difficult to write it without the unnecessary and personal detalis!!

Updates:

I talked to him on Thursday and he wasn't interested in listening to me.. The entire Tuesday was spent plotting and figuring out who was on my side in case it was a war situation between me and the devil.. I think he should be given a name.. I can't think of a name, guys I need help here..

Well, I did get enough support to start a fight, but everyone asked me to keep it as the last option and not unleash hell in the first step itself!! Well, point noted.. I have been at the centre of many rivalries and was always too brutal and too cruel.. A merciless fighter who would rip off the miscreant of little respect he ever had!! So as I was asked to simmer down, I was preparing to take another course this time..

I met him and apologised but he was on cloud nine.. Said I was never attentive and never paid any attention to what he said and that it was my fault that I didn't know that my presentation was due this Tuesday.. Well, I had taken the expert at maintaining cool, as she tried to bring down the temperatures, I was looking for a single slight opportunity to blow off the handle and unleash my weapon.. My words and then show off the student support I had and the hatred we all nurture for him..

He didn't say any such words to make me go mad and have a reason to start a full war than this cold war.. As I left the room fuming as I didn't get on either side of the road, I wondered what to do to make him kneel down or start a fight!!!

He was a clear hopeless case and told me that he was too busy and would talk tomorrow!!!
What the heck!! I wanted to shout out.. Not coming tomorrow would be a point gained for him, so I had to come despite many people taking an off!!!

On Friday, he agreed on giving me a date of this Tuesday without exchange of even a single word.. I was prepared to start a war if he tried to escape without giving a clear reply.. And even before I could utter a single word, he said, 'This Tuesday'!! That is it!!!! I wonder why all my preparations always go in vein!! But still, i got what I wanted without use of much power.. So I feel, it was worth the ado!!!

Another teacher-student rivalry, starring me.. [:D]

As I write this, I am wondering what should be the title for this post!!

I hate that teacher more now..[Hope you read that 'update' post].. What did he do now? Well he deserves all the hate words that man has invented till date.. A piece of crap, a bag of shit, whatever comes to your mind now..

The day began on a high note.. Great energy and my presentation.. It was fine, wasn't as good as I wanted it to be.. But still satisfying.. I covered the topic nicely including the definition, objective, types, advantages, problems faced and ways to overcome them.. It was a bit lenghty but still good for the first attempt..

The next few lectures were also fine, till I got to see his face.. Oh!! I hate him so much.. He is damn irritating.. Poor communication skills and lack of knowledge about the subject added up with such attitude, makes a lethal combination.. So, as he speaks haphazardly placed words like 'Throw the rectifier" instead of 'Through the rectifier", it is more of a guess work going on to know what is he trying to convey with whatever little know how he has about the subject!!!

Well, the strength of the class was less, he took the attendance and asked those not interested in sitting in the class walk out of it.. I was no fool to stick around.. I too left with my friends.. We sat in the adjacent room, playing and giggling.. May be the sound of students having fun irritated him too much.. He came to our class and started looking at us as if we were some aliens plotting to eliminate every sign of life from earth!! As he was trying to find ways to spoil the fun of it all, he spotted me, standing there as other friends sat on desks!! I was the one he took a shot on [not in the literal sense obviously].. He grumbled at me.. Said, what was I doing here.. It was supposed to be the day when I would give my summer training presentation!! God!! What the heck.. He announced it out of nowhere.. I started arguing that it wasn't my turn today, but he started walking away to the room he came from!! Such a shitty thing to do.. Say anything you feel like and walk away!! I hate such acts.. Have the heart to face what comes after the initial accusation!! But many people lack it!!

Anyways, I walked to the class and he thought I would plead to be let in.. But I very firmly and loudly said, I am not coming in, I am just confirming things.. As he was more pissed by my act, I wondered what was next!!!

The day ended and I knew, I would have to talk to him again!!! As I mocked about the incident a few minutes later, I was thinking of what shape this latest argument would take!!!

Note: The title of this post just striked me as soon as I saw the published post, so edited it to give it a title..[:)]

Manali Trip : DAY 2 [contd..]

As we reached our hotel quite late in the evening that too after almost 24 hours while the journey shouldn't have taken more than 14 hours!!! I wonder what was more irritating the long and torturing journey or the way the teachers were behaving.. We were given just half an hour to bathe and relax before making us go out to have a look at the Mall Road in Manali..

A single room was shared by 4 girls.. I was lucky to have great roommates, but still, getting ready in just half an hour was out of question!! So, as we hurried through the process to get the time to explore the place, we were also trying to know each other and adjust!!

As we somehow got dressed a bit appropriately for the windy weather outside, I was surprised to know the restrictions that were imposed on us!! Girls can't go out on their own.. Must be accompanied by guys and teachers... I know it was for our own safety as the people were quite different from the people here in Delhi, but the real put off were the teachers.. The lady teachers wanted to go out together as a group and we didn't want the male teachers around.. After much persuasion and pleading when nothing seemed to move in our favour, we ganged up with the guys and went out to have some fun.. To explore the place and for dinner..


Ahhh.. The chilly winds and the darkness were great and awe inspiring but the local guys passing comments was a bit irritating.. I wonder why can't the guys just leave a gang of girls having fun alone.. Ours is quite a indifferent group.. Why I said so?? Beacuse despite the fact that the number of girls is far lesser to the number of guys in college we have just 2 guys in a group of 10.. Two guys and 8 gals.. It becomes difficult in such places at such hours.. We jokingly asked every single gal to find a boyfriend to accompany us!! [:D]

Anyways, it was fun dining there.. The food was awesome and the services were just fine.. We later ate ice creams as sweet dish.. We didn't get much time to explore the local market though.. I was tired by the end of it all.. So as I went in the room, we quickly talked and decided about the side of the bed I liked and just went to bed immediately..

Btw, I like the right side of the bed [For all those curious people].. [:D]

A little update..

HI,

Wondering what keeps me busy these days.. Well, you know guys, its the face book and the recent happenings..

My friend is just fine now.. Off for a small vacation with parents to her grandparents..

The college isn't going smooth at all.. We have lots of presentations lined up and I am not feeling too prepared!! I have a group presentation on this coming Tuesday on the Interview Techniques.. I am speaking for a group of four and thus I am in immense pressure as not only my grades, but their grades too depend on how I perform there.. They are showing great confidence in me and I don't wanna let them down by not performing up to the mark, so as I try to remove the slightest discomfort I am in, I wonder if it is all gonna go smooth.. I am preparing, but I am getting these nervousness and panic attacks.. For the first time I am experiencing that butterflies in your stomach kind of feeling!!!


I have another presentation lined up for this Tuesday, most probably than not its not happening this Tuesday, but when things go wrong, they go wrong in the worst possible manner, so I am trying to prepare for the worst possible scenario!! Giving two presentations in a day.. Its about my summer training in front of a teacher that has developed special disliking for me.. Oh!!! He hates me, no doubt I hate him more than he hates me but sometimes the hatred of a teacher is the most damaging of all hatreds you earn in your college life.. The worst would be, all hate you alike.. Luckily I haven't mastered it yet!! Touch wood... I don't wanna see that day either when I would be the loathed and hated student!!! God spare me the horror!!!


Though the earlier presentation of HRM on the topic of INTERVIEWS is easier as I am deeply interested in the subject and I have studied the material at least once and I know what all I can speak about it.. But the other on my summer training is gonna be the hardest nut to crack.. Its on Visual Basics, a computer subject.. What's the big deal, some of you may be thinking, but those who know me a bit know that I HATE COMPUTERS.. I wish they weren't invented.. Yeah, I hate them to this extent.. Or at least we didn't have to study about them.. The languages and all are so difficult until someone teaches you nicely and I don't know even the A B C's of the language.. And I am supposed to present it.. In front of a teacher who hates me to the core.. I need a miracle to get out of this unhurt!!! I wish for some super powers here.. Or a 'Like me for sometime' spray.. Yeah, I don't want him to like me for too long.. Uhhhh

Anyways, I don't have a great footwear either.. I know it sounds funny to talk about the footwear ordeal right now, but I can't help it.. Moreover, its a good distraction.. In fact, you would agree that a nicely dressed not too well versed in the subject speaker is better than a dorky geek knowing all about the subject!! If you look good, are dressed appropriately, you are more confident and you are allowed to go wrong a few times too.. A pretty face, a nice smile and just the right dress makes things easier.. [:D]
Ok, I am exaggerating, but it surely helps a bit, even if just 1 percent...

So, wondering if I should run to the market or just try to gather as much knowledge about the subject as possible.. I am in a dilemma and would love to get a few suggestions for the next presentation [may be, you guys take too long a time to write back]..

Still nervous and think I should read something..[:)]

Catch you guys later and would keep you updated!!

This heart breaking LOVE..

My friend is upset.. Very upset..

I could make out that something is wrong the moment I picked the receiver, asked her if everything was alright.. A yes, was all she said, but I could feel the discomfort in her voice.. I didn't felt like pressing her too hard [don't subject people to what I wont like to face myself], so as we talked about stuffs I did, I was still wondering what was behind her sadness..

I asked her what all she did and for a first time she didn't give me a minute to minute detail of things she did!! She is very descriptive, even more than I seem here.. May be its a quality I picked from her, like she picked a few from me..[:)]

As she said nothing in a very monotonous and low voice, I knew something was bothering her.. I asked again, is everything alright?? She was saying a yes again, while I could hear her voice quiver.. I knew there was something, but I wasn't sure what it was.. I wasn't interested in making wild guesses this time.. Most of the time I say something and would shout "Touch wood" the very next moment.. I have these strange coincidences where all the foul things I say come true.. A God's gift!! I don't think it is!!

So, as I refrained self from being too pessimistic and making wild guesses, I asked her and getting a contradictory reply made me wonder what it is!! As I almost believed whatever she said, I was ready to put down the phone and go back to catch up with the TV show I was watching!!

A few hours later, all tired and exhausted I hit the bed.. Putting the phone on silent is almost a religion now, so doing it was some kind of satisfaction..

My sister saw a blinking mobile, thinking it was hers, she got up from the bed just to discover it was mine.. Handed over the phone to me to lie down again.. As I saw the number flashing on the screen, I almost remembered what I felt when I talked to her.. That she was upset and not in a mood to talk about it..

I answered the phone, wore my slippers and quickly slipped out of my room to sit in other room and talk to her for hours.. We don't let anyone attend calls in the bedroom as it disrupts other's sleep.. As I walked down the lobby to the other room, I was asking her if she was fine and what was the thing troubling her..

As she started with my favourite line, I knew she was feeling too low and was too sentimental and emotional at the moment.. BTW, my favourite line is "Nikki, You know something.. You are really very very nice.." [I know this sounds like a too pompous, but I love it when someone says it].. So as she sobbed and I agreed to her line, [she doesn't like it when I don't agree with the fact that I am too good!![;)]] I was trying to make her to come to the point..

Well, her good friends were parting ways.. And now since that was a relation she helped build and nurtured with great effort, I knew the pain she felt.. The news of their break up was a shock to me too.. I met them and they looked fine, in fact great together and I just couldn't find a reason to think it was called for.. I didn't see it coming [with my level of negativity regarding relations, I can say, I can see it coming, I can predict it.. But in their case, even I didn't feel it was something I would hear..].. As I tried to reconfirm what I heard, I wondered what could possibly have gone wrong!!

As in the Enrique's song, 'Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly'.. I wonder if it was the final destination of the various high school and college relationships.. Its always difficult to see it coming.. The 'Break up', it just comes out of nowhere and strikes you hard and even before you could know, the beautiful world you created is gone.. Swept by a wind, washed by a tide, it just leaves a few devastated people behind, a broken man/woman and lots of tears.. Though not many guys moan it like girls do!!

I didn't see a guy crying, while we girls, I don't understand why we get so attached to someone that we feel broken when they leave.. Whatever it be, the hormones or our lack of strength [that's what people call] but after a days of shedding tears day and night, we emerge stronger.. We are able to face the situation and learn to move on..

I wish my friend's friend too gets that strength and my friend too gets over this shock of their break up!! While I try to relearn a lesson learnt by heart, that such relations are not meant to last!! That they are the first trees to fall, when the wind is strong!!

Manali Trip: Day 2

In the morning we started towards Manali all over again, this time in the right direction though[:)].. It was a beautiful morning, the cool fresh air pumping into our lungs, we felt a bit energised.. Within a few hours, we were in the hilly region.. It was a great sight.. The rising sun in the mountains!! It felt like the start of a good trip now..

(As we opened our eyes and pulled the curtains, that's the scene we saw!!)

(The beautiful river looked so green and beautiful)

(The road, that covered the mountains like snakes, looked so fine)

(River Beas, that travelled alongside us..)

As the beautiful locations were taking our breath away, a few of us were thinking about the other bus.. Well, I was also thinking about my luggage, but after the first stop and that mouthwash without a proper brush later, I wasn't bothered about the wherabouts of the other bus which has already covered this beautiful place while its passengers were all sleeping.. We secretly were loving being lost and thanking our stars for letting us see the beauty as the sun was rising..

(The early morning brush on the road)

After seeing the beautiful landscape from my window and bored of playing all the games, I went on inside the crew cabin of the bus to see the most amazing and splendorous scenes.. As each and every turn in the mountains opened new avenues, I enjoyed looking ahead to what beauty would unfold before my eyes after each turn..

There was this double lane tunnel on the Ambala-Manali National Highway Number 21.. It was 2.8 to 3 km long (as told by my friends).. I later googled it to find this bit of information - On August 5 2006, Mr Virbhadra Singh, the then Chief Minister of Himachal Pradesh, inaugurated the 2,809 metre-long double lane tunnel near Aut on the Ambala-Manali National Highway 21..

(The Allain Duhangan Hydroelectric Project (ADHP) built on Allain and Duhangan tributaries of Beas river near Kullu and Manali )

(The Bridge where our bus was fined for lack of some papers and we stepped down to touch the river.. It was chilling cold water and a few did slip from the rock we were standing into the freezing cold water..)

(We getting in the river to touch the water as it was getting late for a dip in it..[:)])

By the time we made our way up, we were already getting late and were still quite away from our hotel.. As we set again, we were all tired and irritated.. All of us just wanted to just keep ourselves warm in our rooms and take a hot water shower!!