In the past few days I had been hurt a lot..
Yes, It was a real bad week that somehow ended and I am feeling a little better now.. Not because the issues have been amicably settled but because I am bored and tired of wondering over what prompted them to have such opinions about me!!
It started with knowing how my good friend still doesn't understands me.. She still judges me for whatever I say.. It hurts to know that you can't be yourself even in front of your friends while most of the time you act according to the socially acceptable norms and thus the lone time with friends is cherished by all as you know you wont be judged for a nasty comment, a little bitching that you do!! I thought over the years we have come to know each other so much that she knows when I am kidding and when I am not, when I am just commenting just for the heck of it, when I am damn serious but I recently discovered that all this time I was being judged and I was being characterised rather than just being accepted as who I was!! Hurts to know it when some good friend of yours still tells others that you are a mess..
I feel so betrayed, so hurt because I don't open up to strangers, not many know all aspects of my personality as I don't like being judged on my way of saying things, my arrogance, my ignorance, my views, my dreams and my fears and weaknesses.. But it feels so vulnerable when someone you trusted enough to know your silly side was judging you all the while!!
Somehow I was coming to terms with it when I came to know someone who I don't even talk to is telling my other best friend that she doesn't like me and my good friend as both of us are so pompous and arrogant and so not her type.. Why the hell would I care if you don't like me.. Its not my problem babe.. I wish such back bitters had the courage to stand up to me and tell it to my face and then I would teach them the most important lesson of their lives, that no one gives a damn if you like them or not.. Those who matter would tell it to your face and those who don't can bark their throats out and I don't care for their strained vocal cords!! As if I asked them if they liked me.. As if it makes any difference to me, be jealous and go to hell, you can't be like me nor change me and I am immune to your negativity..
This just makes me wonder why do people make opinions about others without even knowing them, I don't even talk to this chick.. The only thing is that she is jealous that my friend who was earlier her companion in the bus now doesn't care to hear her crap and this is how these jealous people channelise their negativity.. But in the process they lose whatever little dignity and respect they had!! Had she kept her disapproval of me to herself, I wouldn't have found a reason to hate her more.. I'll look forward to see her all irritated face when no one talks to her as she is someone who can't cherish the beautiful bond of friendship.. If you ever read this chick, I want you to know that no one in your class or the bus likes you and everyone hates your attitude.. The world won't revolve at your will, learn to control your tantrum throwing ways or one day you'll be thrown out of this group you think you are a member of while people hate you and are just suppressing the feeling they get when you act like the nerd and bimbo that you are.. [:P]
And as far as I am concerned, I don't care about people like you, if you don't like me , better keep off me because I don't like people like you and I have already shown my disapproval..
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