I am upset.. Too upset.. I want to talk to my good friends and want to spend the rest of my day just thinking about wonderful things we do together.. I don't know why I sometimes feel so bad!!

May be its because my best friend is going away for 13 days!! That she would be too busy and I won't be able to talk to her as and when I want to!!

Its her cousin's wedding and she would be too busy with all the ceremonies and here I am attending to my mood swings!! Without her it becomes even more difficult to handle all this.. Its not that I am any less close to the rest of them but I feel this way whenever anyone of them goes away.. Oh, I hate to feel this way.. This makes me realise the fact that we would be walking on our different routes within the next few months and may be we would be separated by great distances and we would not find time for each other.. The very thought scares the hell out of me.. Bring tears in my eyes..

I wonder if one day none of us finds time to stop and say a 'Hi' from our busy schedule.. I can't imagine the day!!! I love it when I know what my friends are doing and I love it when they know what I am up to.. Its such a great feeling of caring and being cared for that I never wanna loose it for anything.. I wish we always take out time from our busy schedules to talk to each other, if not daily then at least twice a week.. I wish for things but who knows what is in store for us.. I just wish its the best and we still stay in touch..

But right now all I want is that she comes back soon.. All this while, since the day she told me that she is going away, I wanted her not to go.. I secretly wished that something comes up and she cancel going there.. I loved it when she said one half of her wanna go but other half wanna stay here, with me.. Its the best feeling when someone makes you feel so special.. I just wish that these days pass by as I blink and she stands besides me like she always does.. I think she is some sister separated at birth, a 'Siamese twins' or something as we can feel each others pain and happiness too..

How often we need a topic to talk about to people we really like??

I was wondering about my conversation with most of my friends, it starts with a 'Hi, How are you?' What were you doing?' And then we start with details of what we did all day before we connected via, whatever be the medium.. So I wonder what all do we talk about?


Its the entire days summary starting with the time I woke up and then what all I did and then what all I saw and then what I would do next.. Who others I talked to in the day.. Anything interesting and so on .. As both parties finish off with these trivial details, we juggle with various other stuffs like what all happened on that particular day and what did you dream of? Yes, its fun talking about what you want, what you hope for and what did you dream of last night and we love to recreate the entire sequence of events.. Its fun and a great imaginative exercise..


We also keep saying 'and?' 'AND?' in quick succession but we don't feel we are done.. This is what happens when we are talking to the one we like talking to.. We are never busy for them and we feel its the most important call of our life and we must take it.. The thought of saying - 'Busy right now, would call you later' , wouldn't even cross our mind but when you hear this line too often, I would say you should conclude that the person doesn't want to talk to you and is trying to find an out without actually hurting you.. Well the last line isn't true.. You are ought to get hurt and I would rather call it subtle hints for you to fall back as someday you would hear it from them yourself..



Thus, if you mean anything to that person.. If being with you gives them joy, they would always make up things to talk about rather than cite a mental thought process termination as a reason to stop talking to you and won't keep repeating there isn't anything to talk about either.. [The last line hold only if said at more than 3 instances, I like to give them a benefit of doubt.. I know I am too fair]..[;)]

My 'It won't help if you Fret' theory..[;)]

I wonder why is everyone so serious 24x7.. Why they just can't take things lightly.. I don't know why they make a big deal out of everything?

We are having our first placement drive this February.. Yes, the first chance to land ourselves a job and yes it is a big deal but why so tensed?? Why carry that look around as if the world would end if you wouldn't carry that frown and you ought to save the world as you are the good..[:D]
I mean talk to anyone and they are all so tensed about the placement drive, its not that it would help.. What to read, how to prepare, what to wear and so many more questions, I feel I would just loose all the will to face interview questions if this continues for a few more days..!!

Its not that I want it any less than others but, you know, I have a different theory.. Yeah, one more theory.. Lets call it 'It wont help to fret!!'... All around me suddenly become all serious and brooding whenever they have any big event coming up, some even fret even on the mention of a class test, who on earth cares for that.. I am also sincere and I do submit my work on time and do give tests and papers but I never behave like the Prime Minister of a warring nation!!

I believe in my 'It wont help to fret' and I move around as if I am shielded even if the entire world is falling apart.. Small things never break my spirit.. I can talk extensively even if I am not prepared for my exam I am headed to take.. Come on, you can't be prepared from an unprepared state by fretting or just going through things at the last minute. .Its better to keep your calm and use your calm mind to give logical and sensible answers than writing a few mugged sentences without any knowledge about them.. You wouldn't score this way for sure but some logical answer with some common sense and little knowledge you have is surely a good bet.. You have nothing to loose and everything to gain, so I take it as a chance to learn and not cry about the excuses I can give for not being prepared to face the situation.. Why pretend to be strong when you can always cry.. Why hide ypur pain when it can be soothed by a few tender words?? I would rather speak up and let it go then fret and shed hair.. I think losing hair is worse than shedding a few drops of tears.. Don't you think? Crying would help you get rid of the dirt in your eyes but loosing a few strands would lead you to another fretting situation and believe me its a vicious cirlce, just like the vicious circle of poverty we read about in class 9 that would never let you get out of its grip.. So better run for your life and look young and full of life.. Even the literal sense would have the same effects.. [;)]

Bonding between girls..

I always felt that girls are better at bonding with others and the bond is stronger when it is between two girls.. Look around and you can cite a great number of girls that are bounded too well to each other.. I am very attached to my girl friends and I can't imagine to go on without them.. They are my 'support system'.. The four pillars of my strength, yes, there has been an addition to my support system..

Yanks, the new entrant may be a young thing but is as good at understanding and caring as any other of them.. She understands me and cares for me and can really know what I want and what I feel despite whatever I say.. [Yes, like any other girl, I say and mean different things]..

Yanks makes me realise the importance of things and yes she too has added her individuality to my persona.. I can now see a few things through her eyes too and I can now appreciate one more point of view, another prospective.. We love and respect each other, we share thoughts, dreams and our expectations.. We ask for each other's advice, while she adds another well thought over streak in my deeds and thoughts, I bring in the necessary aggression and randomness.. The craze and uncertainty.. I am strangely different and uncertain and yes, I am proud of it.. My view may be different but it surely isn't wrong..

The point is a girl has better communication skills and can really express self well.. I need more time to speak out my mind in emotional situations, I love my shell, don't wanna share somethings with the world, but I can let down the guards when I am talking to my 'support system'.. I am sure most would agree.. Someone once said that girls are emotionally stronger as they can talk freely with their friends and share feelings and feel less vulnerable, while guys just hang out together and seldom talk about their feelings.. TRUE..
I agree with this generalisation he drew.. Yes, we have an advantage on this front.. We can cry and speak our heart out and feel better and thus we can really get a bitter experience out of our system sooner.. We are less likely to be left with the pain in heart as someone [a dear gal] would make us talk our heart out and feel better.. No doubt guys also cheer up their friends but they don't encourage you to talk about it and even if in some rare situation they do, the guy hurt doesn't wanna open up.. The girls would hear you, give suggestions, agree with you and your point of view, even call the other person causing pain some names and even curse them swear to kick his/her ass for you and laugh about it some other day.. Its such an evolving process and pain does withers away and soon it becomes bearable..


The best way to cheer up would be bitching about a common object of hatred.. Yes, we love it and we do love to keep ourselves updated with all the happenings in our surroundings and this word of mouth has more credibility than that 'fact' being stated in the paper..[:D] We believe our source and we pass on the information to our trusted friends and thus we all are updated.. No doubt the men call us the gossip mongers but they are no less in spreading rumours and details of others personal lives but we girls bond over such conversations while they just love to be aware of a happening just not to feel left out!! Agree with me guys, you don't bond on this aspect and you would pass on the information to a larger group than all of us taken together.. We love to keep it in the group and thus you can never confront us..[:D]

Keeping the humour aside, we have a better understanding of behavioural patterns so we love to categorise people and we like drawing comparisons between lives of people.. We analyse the situation for our friend who isn't in a state of mind to judge.. We take the responsibility and deal with things as if they were our own problems and we never feel tired to lend a helping hand so this explains the fact that why we have a best girls friend and not a guy best friend.. Guys too mostly share feelings with a girl.. Its a fact, just like we gel more when we hate the same thing than liking the same thing..[;)]

[Note : Photos courtesy various sources ]

Some coincidences..

I always wonder about these few things that happen almost every year.. I wonder if there is some synchronisation between these events and the weather.. What am I talking about?? Well, just spare a few minutes and take a look at the strange happenings below :

1. Why does it always get cold on January, 26? There hasn't been a single January 26 since I was a kid [the limitation of human memory implies here too] that wasn't foggy.. The morning is too cold with lost of fog and by the time its 12, we get a nice sunshine.. It seems its a part of the preparation for the Republic day parade.. Yesterday it was quite warm and it wasn't this foggy but now look at today, its too cold and it was foggy too.. Its good to see the Rashtrapati Bhawan through a thin layer of fog but why is this always the case?

2. Why is Christmas always accompanied by intense cold wave? Just like the case of January 26, December 25 is also too cold and windy.. No matter how much the winter seem delayed even till December 24, but it suddenly gets cold on the 25th!! It seems the situations long ago during the time of Christ's birth are always re-created.. It is too cold and we have to get all the woollens out from there resting place to keep ourselves warm..

3. Why it always rains on August 15? The monsoon may be delayed, there may be little monsoon in a year but hardly any Independence day goes without a drizzle.. We always see the Prime Minister walking with an umbrella to unfold the Tricolor.. The location and weather remaining constant, we can only see the various Prime Ministers change over due course of time..

I don't have much problem with the Rains but I do not like this cold and windy winter climate.. I am too susceptible to cold and I wish we had little or warmer winters though it were a windy winters this time while the last year we did get a zero temperature [that's what was the recorded night temperature one particular night last winters].. I am happy that its time for spring and soon we can pack all the woollens away..[:)]

Happy Republic day..!

Its the 60th Republic day and we are celebrating the 60th year of our existence as a democracy.. I feel we are quite a young nation and I am just not pointing at the average age of the Indians which I suppose is somewhere around 25.1 [quite young, we must admit] but I was talking about the age of the Nation as whole.. As a democratic government..

No doubt that ours is a 5000 year old civilization but we have also spent some 200 years as a slave Nation.. We Indians take great pride in our culture and civilization but still some of the newly found values of equality and other multidimensional liberties are yet to be properly implemented!! A few days back I read it in the newspaper that most of our laws were made by the British and some of them aren't relevant now.. Some of the laws haven't been used for the past 150 years or so, I meant in jurisdiction.. I feel some day our ministers should look at these laws and try to improve what seems irrelevant in the present context and put in new laws that cater to the new found problems of this rather young and dynamic nation which is growing at a fast pace..

Just Joined 'Twitter'..

Just joined the famous micro blogging site 'TWITTER' but I like it more here.. I have the liberty to use as many words here as I want to while there just a small feed of 140 words actually calls for silly one liners and wacky interesting lines that just give an idea of your state while here you can explain yourself at great lengths!! [;)]

How can the woman write there and be still satisfied as I believe we have this inherent mitochondrial gene that describes our longing to use as many words as possible to explain ourselves.. There writing a thought is like trying to squeeze an Elephant to fit into a 4'X4' box!!! Yes, at least for me it is a way of saying so many things in just 140 words!! As I resort to SMS language that I am trying to evade, I wonder is it really something I would enjoy in the long run? The answer to the question is still unknown but I am out to find it.. Sooner or later, I would either give into the monsterous laws [come on, a word limit, or should I say character limit of 140 is too cruel and gruesome] or I would give up and write here happily forever and ever..

This however is to remain my favourite for eternity as I always feel I have too much to talk about and too little people at my predisposal who would probably understand me!! Well if you would like to see my attempts there, I am there by the name of 'NeEti_VeRmA', had to invent this style as I never get my name as an available id to pick up.. I wish I could tell all the other Neeti Verma's that it is so unfair of them to pick up my name before I could also invade the cyber space!! [:(] As I sob for the loss of the dream of owning my name as a url, I would rather like to take a break from the computer!! Phew, I feel a bit tired now!!

I think Bill Kaulitz is really too cute...

An off sometimes becomes too much to handle and what do you do when you aren't exactly feeling too good to move out and there isn't much to do inside..

So just like thousands of us who either watch the 'Idiot box', i.e., TV or sufr the net, I too decided to spend my day doing just that!! I was just surfing through the various channels when I was forced to stop and look at the guy performing in some concert..


I heard him sing a few amazing tracks of his band, 'Dogs unleashed', 'Alien', 'Dark side of the sun' and 'Ready, set, go' and I just couldn't take my eyes off him.. I stood there admiring his jawline and then I realised he had a great body too.. I decided to know more about him.. As the segment was over and someother show started airing on the channel, I decided to google him later and know more about him..


As the day proceeded and after my little noon nap, I headed straight to the computer to know more about this cool guy.. This is what I could find about him :


He is the vocalist in the German band 'Tokio Hotel' which was formerly called 'Devilish'.. He started writing music with his twin brother at the age of seven.. By the age of thirteen, he had his band in place, they called it 'Devilish'.. His debut album 'Scream' was a big hit in Germany and later was re-released in English.. His looks, young age and edgy hairstyle has helped him obtain icon status among many teenage girls.. No doubt, he is a stunner and has gained iconic status.. Bill was immortalized in wax at the Madame Tussauds museum in Berlin.. At 19, Bill became the youngest person to be duplicated by the Madame Tussauds museum in Berlin..

Well, finding all this about him made him look even more cute than he did in the first go..

ESD was really a sucker..!!

The subject was the most irritating subject I had dealt with till date..

I was tensed about the viva a month or so ago but the theory paper was worse.. I had studied a lot and i had even revised the entire stuff before the exam but still the paper was set so hard for any average person to crack.. [No, the 'THREE IDIOTS' thing didn't apply here]
I still remember how I went through the entire question paper to see if there was a question I could attempt.. No, I wasn't a big zero but still there wasn't a single question in the entire paper I could attempt both the parts of!!

Somehow I started writing in the answers and I know I have written the paper like a below average person but it was the best I could perform.. I just don't understand why someone would frame a paper in such a way.. Everyone was baffled to see the question paper and I know a few who would still clear it.. I just hope I get a 40 somehow and I don't have to write the paper again in the next semester!![:(]

I still can't get over that shock and all my conversations regarding the papers start with the example of ESD.. It was worse than the MWRE paper last semester [which was the reason for those mixed feeling regarding results last semester].. This time I won't be shocked to see my result as I think I know what awaits me in the next few months.. Though a paper still remains, all I can think about is the result, I want the result to be declared soon this time.. And a good result is a dream that can't even be a distant reality..

If I clear the paper I would believe in two things - one is that miracles do happen and the other is, well lets not share it right now..[;)]

Why do people who shout in an argument??

This is a question that most of us wonder about when we are in an argument with someone.. I have had many heated arguments with anyone to everyone.. What I have noticed so far is that most people presume that they can overpower you by just the shrillness and volume of their voice.. They start shouting to project that their point of view is not only right but also of superior quality..

Some would try to defend it as a spontaneous outburst of anger and disagreement but I wonder how is their rage brought down just after shouting that one sentence.. I too get angry and I too shout at people but I just don't stop after shouting one line.. I would continue to murmur a few curses till that adrenaline rush goes away and that resentment and hard feeling come out of my system in the form of words!! I may be abusive but pretentious and loud, I don't think that is the right way to get over the sudden rush of rage..

This girl I know and I engage into a number of arguments with her, feels that just because she is shouting, she is saying the right thing.. She is so idiotic and her point of view is somewhat so retarded..!! She would just shout in her shrill and irritating voice saying things that any sane man would consider so lame to put in your opening lines of the argument!! [:D] Seriously, she just shouts out loud that I can't fool her with my clever and ludicrous ways.. That she is too smart to fall prey to my ways of influencing people.. She is such a pudden-head that I wonder how she deals with other people around her with such a lame thinking!!

According to her when you give a point after a pause, when you wait for her to cool off a bit you are making it up now!! And that she is too smart to see through you!! I feel like calling her names and telling her that you are a moron and that a person like you should be treated for neurosis.. She is demented and I feel her supporter should be thoroughly punished for making her feel her way of thinking is right and that she should see and evaluate people according to her demented capabilities!!

I am just going to stop giving attention to that unhinged girl a cold shoulder and let her live in her demented state till someone really kicks her and make her come to senses to realise how abnormally irritating and demented her ways are!! No doubt she can't stick to many gal friends she makes, as far as guys are concerned, well they love to stick to a pretty retard..!![;)]